Wednesday, April 11, 2012

One More...


I know...you're about to pass out...2 posts in one day...for real?  Well...
Kayla has some big news to share...




























































She is ecstatic to be a big sister.  She has big plans...feeding the baby, pushing the baby in a stroller, singing to the baby, rocking the baby...all great plans...but she has made it perfectly clear she doesn't want to change diapers.  Fair enough.  Can't say I blame her.

We are {for the most part} thrilled!  I would say that I am beyond thrilled but I have so many worries...
Kayla will be 6 {and a half} by the time this baby comes.  I am worried that I won't know how to be a Mommy to two kids.  It's been just us for so long.  She has been our world.  Our everything.  How can I possibly share love for another being?  Can I love another child as much as I love her?  Have I forgotten all of parenting-a-newborn stuff?

Another worry is the delivery experience.  With Kayla, all of my joy and excitement was ripped away by doctors and family that really have no real understanding of Down syndrome.  And at that time, neither did I.  But those first few moments and days as a new Mommy were stolen from me by the hurt, pain and fear.  I don't want that with this child.  While with every child there is an unknown, I want to be accepting and more importantly, I want others to be accepting.  Family have already begun asking "if everything is ok with this baby" {translation: does this baby have Down syndrome}.  Clearly a lack of knowledge and understanding is fueling these questions, but what if this child has Down syndrome?  Does that mean we will love him or her any less?  Absolutely not.  We are ready to accept life...to embrace a brand new baby...and hope our family and friends are, too.  Each new baby brings challenges.  We just hope the baby is healthy.

I know many of my worries and fears are natural and I just need to get over it...but these are the thoughts that creep into my head during the dark hours as I lay awake in my bed {in between getting up to pee 6 times a night}.

Ok...so now that I have vented on my worries...I wanna shout from a rooftop...I am elated with joy!  I can't wait to be a Mommy again.  An experience I have never known.  As an only child, I don't know what it is like to be a sibling and I look forward to that relationship between this baby and Kayla.  It is a relationship I have longed for my entire life.

One thing is for sure...I know they will have one thing in common...they both like to dance.  This baby likes to move...and makes me aware of his or her presence all day...well, really all night.  Yay.

Stay tuned...Baby Kosmalski #2 is scheduled to make his or her debut September 26.
Off to read I'm A Big Sister for the 14th time.  She is really getting into her new role and new-found title of Big Sister...

14 comments:

  1. First comment! I can't believe it!
    Omg, I started crying at the picture of Kayla's five blue gold buddies! Then balled my eyes out even more seeing another little Kayla will be walking this Earth! I'll gladly watch Kayla when Baby Kosmalski is born! I know she would love to strut her stuff on campus! <3 Congratulations!

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  2. Congratulations! I am so excited for you and for Kayla!

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  3. Congrats and God Bless you all...We are so very happy for all of you...

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  4. CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!! And, are you kidding???? YOU forget how to be a good mom??? Be able to manage two kids???? LOL. You could write the book on how to be a rock star mom -- and I'm guessing you just might one day. If Kayla doesn't beat you to it. :) So happy for you all. God has truly blessed you with such a beautiful family and I'm sure He'll be there when baby Kosmalski #2 arrives. Can't wait for your next update. Hugs to you all. XO, Kristin, Tim, Emily and Ian

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  5. So happy for your family, Amy! You will fall back into new mommy with the same grace you do being Kayla's mom. It will all come right back:) I pray that this pregnancy is filled with nothing but joy. That there are no unexpected surprises, and that you can have a wonderful welcoming party for it. Cant wait to see Kayla as a big sister. She is going to rock this role :)

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  6. Congratulations! That is so great!

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  7. Amy, I know we have not met yet but I just wanted to wish you, Rick and Kayla Congratulations. As someone who has been there, I can completely relate to what you are feeling. Soon, you will not know what life was like before two children. You will find love for your second sweet baby and Kayla will be the best big sister out there. When we decided to have a second baby our family asked "what do the doctors think about this?". In the end, it is what you and Rick feel is right for your family. This will truly bring your family so much joy, and I cannot wait to hear about Kayla's new little sister or brother. Congrats, again!

    Renee (Rick's Partner's in policymaking buddy :))

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  8. Congratulations! We have five kids, and our kiddo with DS is an awesome big brother to his three younger siblings. Once the new baby arrives, you will see that love just multiplies exponentially. (by the way, so does the laundry...) Enjoy every moment!

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  9. Congrats to you!!!! YAY! I felt SO MANY of those same feelings when we got pregnant with Carter. (Rylee was 3 and a half when Carter was born, so a little younger than Kayla.) Anyway, just like everyone else here has said, it works out and is amazing and wonderful and you'll look back when your baby turns 5 and honestly can't imagine what it was like WITHOUT him/her! (Carter just turned 5 this past weekend, and that's EXACTLY how I feel!!!) Again, congrats and soak up all of these moments with Kayla before September!

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  10. Congratulations Amy, Rick & Kayla!! Kalya will be a fabulous big sister. This new baby is very lucky to a part of such a wonderful family.
    Elaine

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  11. Congratulations, Amy! I am due 8/24 and I can honestly say all of your fears are valid & normal. Just do your best to enjoy every second because as you know, it passes by much too quickly! XOXOXO

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  12. Congratulations! My second child was born just last week and I can relate to so many of the feelings you mentioned. I wrote about what it's been like so far, on the other side of pregnancy, just the other day, in case you feel like looking. It's bizarre and amazing all at the same time. I wish you and your family all the best!

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  13. Congratulations! We have 3 kids, our middle daughter has DS. It is wonderful to have a family, they get big fast, 17, 15 and 10... Enjoy every moment. Take a look at our site www.raiseExpectations.com too

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